i’m constantly stuck between ‘hug me and make me feel valid’ and ‘touch me and i’ll rip your fucking guts out’
me: i’m going to clean my room! i’m going to take a shower! i will wake up early and take care of myself!
brain: u know whats fun? rotting.
During shower:
-wet
-leaning against the wall is tiring after a while
-if you lie on the floor of the tub and the water is hitting your lower half eventually you just feel kinda numb
-wet hair in the face is inevitable
-watch out for water buildup in the tub
-prop head on arm if water buildup happens anyways
-what is soap even
-if the water goes cold you barely notice
-white walls are best for staring at
-^even better watching the water droplets run down
-everything ends and so must the waterAfter shower:
-dazed
-lol what are clothes
-Hoard. All. The. Towels.
-dry is nice too
-sleepy
-darkness is my friend
-kinda quiet, which is Good™
-soft. Soft is Very Good™
-didn’t drown, which is a plus.
-nap time :)
“You’re so mature for your age.” Thanks it’s from my lack of a childhood and trauma!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-)
we’re lesbians first and humans second
Who else literally does not talk
my gf: *exists*
me: *smiling, giggling, and hugging my pillow* i love her so much!!! 💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘
JUST GO TO BED
shut the fuck up bitch
oh wait this is my post

